Pre-Wedding Festivities |
On June 25th three years ago, our first baby was due. We had found out the following December that they wouldn't be coming after all. It was a day of mourning and remembering our first major loss as a couple.
On June 25th two years ago, I cried in the car for the baby I never got to meet, who would have been almost one. My Niall gently reminded me that June is also a month of joy, and that I didn't need to cry every year on June 25th out of some bizarre mother guilt. I wondered if and when we would ever be parents.
Goofy Anniversary Fun |
We almost delivered S that night, we stared the possibility of losing baby #2 right in the face. The Lord chose life over death this time, and we are thankful, oh so very thankful, for the precious gift of S.
Hanging out on Bed Rest |
I am thankful for (almost!) four years of joyful marriage, and love that gets sweeter and deeper as time unfolds.
I am thankful for the hard and painful times He has brought us through as a couple. I'm thankful that they didn't break us, but only drew us closer to each other and Him.
I am thankful that I am not in the hospital, suffocated by dry air, riddled with needle holes and hooked up to multitudes of monitors and I.V. drips. That I am free to enjoy summer this year- with walks in the sunshine, glasses of homemade iced tea, and flip flop tan lines on my feet.
I'm thankful that S is here to enjoy it with me- healthy, happy, a bundle of blessing and joy. Her NICU days a distant and blurry memory.
At Church (One of S's First Sundays!) with Niall's Folks |
Rachel,
ReplyDeleteWhat a tapestry of God's grace is woven in and out of the same date, year after year! You have known such hard providences early on. What joy to see your beautiful baby in your arms. It's amazing to me that we never know what tomorrow brings...God truly surprises us in the most awe-inspiring ways. May each providence only make us love and trust Him more!
I am just so thankful that we serve a Sovereign God who is working all things together for good who love Him and are called according to His purpose! We can weather any circumstance knowing and loving the God who ordained it :). Thank you Trisha!
DeleteYes! Isn't that so wonderful. There is such comfort in the sovereignty of God!
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