My sweet daughter S loves to be awake... only at night when I want to sleep it seems. Can you relate? Motherhood and sleeplessness are synonyms, right? So this is no surprise to me, because it has been the plight of mothers down through the centuries. I get it. And most of the time I can roll with it. One of the wonderful things about being a stay at home mom is naps :).
But then there are times, like last night, when I've just about hit my limit of sleep deprivation. This child cannot possibly be still awake! If I have to keep my eyes open for another second, I might die! It is cruel not only that you are awake, but that you actually have to function sanely, still being patient and sweet to the little baby who has no clue about the misery she is causing.
In these moments I have found peace and reassurance with one simple thought. He knows what I need. The Lord isn't out to get me, He won't push me beyond my limits. So if my daughter is still wide eyed and in need of care, He will equip me to handle it. He knows what I need.
I love Psalm 127:2- "it is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil, for He gives to His beloved sleep." Amen! Music to a tired Mama's ears :). The Lord will give me the rest I need, when I need it. Let it sink in deep: He knows what we need!
Aaaaaaaamen!
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