One of my greatest comforts as I face the uncertainties of pregnancy {and all of life in general} is the assurance of God's absolute sovereignty and goodness. When S was born at only 27 weeks, this knowledge kept me sane and steady, despite the overwhelming fears and unknowns.
I know that "The counsel of the LORD stands forever, the plans of His heart to all generations" (Psalm 33:11). My heart is firmly convinced that "Whatever the LORD pleases, he does, in heaven and on earth, in the seas and all the deeps" (Psalm 135:6).
Furthermore, "Your eyes saw my unformed substance {in utero!}; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them" (Psalm 139:16). Is it not incredible to think that God sees each and every embryo, creates and molds them from start to finish, and forms their exact number of days and the events that will occur therein, writing them in His book?
This is true for me. It was true for you. It is true of each and every pregnancy you and I will ever have.
Not only is my God completely sovereign, He is also good.
"Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you and worked for those who take refuge in you, in the sight of the children of mankind!" (Psalm 31:19).
"This God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him" (Psalm 18:30).
I know that whatever happens in each pregnancy will be good, because He is good. Exceptionally painful? Maybe. Exactly my best scenario? Perhaps. Either way, it will be good.
I can honestly look back on my previous two pregnancies {both painful in their own ways} and say with confidence that the Lord used them for our good.
That miscarriage, a mere six months into marriage, strengthened and tightened the bond between my husband and I in ways nothing else could have. God taught us to love one another, to grieve together, and to cleave all the more tightly to each other. While it was heart-wrenching and hard, God was so good to use it in our lives for greater sanctification.
Our daughter arriving three months early was another great time of growth meant for our good. I never want to repeat the experience, ever. It was exhausting, excruciating, terrifying. Yet the Lord showed us His goodness in so many ways- through the loving care and support of His Church Universal; through watching His miraculous hand in giving, forming, and protecting life; through sustaining us {free from the bitterness, anger, and depression we saw in so many around us} for the duration of our daughter's ordeal; through providing for every need- physical, financial, spiritual, etc..... and the list goes on.
I am abundantly thankful for those difficult pregnancies. God was completely in control over them, He ordained and designed their exact circumstances. He was also indescribably good to us in them. I keep repeating to myself throughout this pregnancy- "whatever happens, it's going to be good."
Are you entrusting yourself to the One who is totally good and totally sovereign today? When the doubts and fears arise, run to His Word, search out His character, and find rest for your soul. Truly He is doing a good work in and for us, today!
Hopefully Expectant,
Rachel
Other Posts in This Series:
Introduction
A Call to Open Hands
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